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New New ID by weasleygirl27 New New ID :iconweasleygirl27:weasleygirl27 0 0
Literature
cold
it's too cold in this skin that I'm in.
I am shivering and collapsing,
and I can't make myself warm,
because it's in me,
something that cannot be touched,
or seen,
or fixed.
it's overwhelming,
so cold that it's hot,
like a knife that has been left in the fire,
stabbing me in the heart,
but I cannot die.
not yet.
I have "so much to live for,"
"I am so young,"
"I have my whole life ahead of me."
I am so tired, so cold, and I just want to fold into myself
and not exist.
I don't want to die.
I want to cease to be,
I want to never have been born,
I want the cold to go away,
I want everyone to stop and everything to stop,
I want to be nothing and everything.
but I am a coward,
I will never,
I can't.
it is the one thing that I will never do,
and really, I can't complain.
I'm fine.
I'll be fine.
I am always,
always,
fine.
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Rinse, wash, repeat
death isn't like heartbreak.
it doesn't go away-
it hovers over like a thundercloud,
booming so deep and profound that you can't comprehend it,
and lightning zigs and zags out at the most random times.
when you see their favorite color,
or walk past their street,
or eat a food you made together once.
it hits you like a heart attack and you can't breathe.
all you can do is cry,
and cry,
and cry.
and when you're done crying, you feel empty,
like the tears washed you out of your own body,
and now you're a seashell with nothing in you but a few grains of sand and some salt water.
you sit numbly on your bed in fetal position and pretend to be okay if anyone comes around because you can't take the pity.
when it's brought up you change the subject and swallow back tears that feel like secrets in your mouth, sour and waiting to be expelled.
rinse,
wash,
repeat.
until a couple months pass
or a year
or a year and a half.
and it slowly begins to fade.
and when you see their favorite color,
or wal
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New ID by weasleygirl27 New ID :iconweasleygirl27:weasleygirl27 2 10
Literature
Maybe
Maybe I'll run
Maybe I'll run and run and run run run
Feeling grass under my feet
Skies changing
Blue, gray, orange, black
The smell of dirt is overwelming
And I breathe in, feel the fresh air seep into me
Take me completely
It'll rain
But I won't care because I ran
And I'm long gone from everything I knew
And it's freeing to stand in a field
Feel the wet, cold drops leak into me, make me numb
No worries about where I was,
Where I'm going,
Where I'll be
Maybe
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Literature
A Visit
You're sitting with your back to me on the edge of the bead, picking lint off my comforter.
"Hi," I say.
You nod a very brief nod, like a slight breeze rustling a bush.
"Why are you here?" I ask.
You say, "I know you've been wanting to see me," without turning around.
I gulp. "I do. But I... I didn't think you'd come."
I can hear my breathing and yours, and the difference between them. My breaths are heavy with surprise and yours are calm, normal, and barely noticeable.
You're not answering, so I say hastily, "What's it like?"
You stiffen, then, perhaps realizing you must keep yourself together, relax. "Quiet. You'd like it."
I nod. I know I would, who wouldn't? "Why now?" I ask, looking down. "I mean, I've been asking for a while."
"I'm getting promoted, and I won't- I won't be able to see you. For a while."
I'm startled. "I didn't know there were promotions, where you... are."
"There's a lot you don't know about it. You'll find out later."
I'm confused now. "I always thought... well,
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Literature
I thought
I guess I thought
When I went
And got the magic solution
Everything would be fine.
I'd be finally normal,
Like every other girl I know.
I wouldn't be teased or looked down upon,
I wouldn't have to put up with the degrading comments,
I could just relax.
But nothing can ever be easy for me, can it?
I have a roof over my head,
family and friends that love me,
food and clothes.
But what I don't have is confidence.
I have little to no self-esteem.
I have no words to express what I feel.
I have no feelings that can be expressed with words.
I have no normal family,
I have no idea who I am,
I have no clue where I'm going,
And I sure as hell don't know how to get there.
All I ever asked for was to be healthy and happy.
But I just can't do that, apparently.
No normalcy is allowed in my life,
No constants, and no happiness.
Masks are generally allowed for hiding how miserable you are,
Because nobody wants to see that.
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Take Me To The Riot by weasleygirl27 Take Me To The Riot :iconweasleygirl27:weasleygirl27 0 0 Crash by weasleygirl27 Crash :iconweasleygirl27:weasleygirl27 0 0
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There's No Plan
She starts to turn around, startled by the noise.
Suddenly she feels a hand around her mouth and is about to lick it,
(Because, what else should she do?)
When she hears, "Shhh, it's me. Don't move."
She smiles and relaxes, the voice being one she knows well.
He lets go of her and she says, "You've been gone for eight years."
"Really? It didn't seem like that long," he replies, perplexed.
"I'm messing with you. It's been two hours." He grins and she grins back.
They both duck down as another crash echoes through the house.
He puts his finger on his lips and walks slowly down the hallway, pulling out that familiar machine from his jacket pocket.
"Doctor," she says carefully, "What's the plan?"
"Oh, there's no plan, Pond." He grins and waves the sonic. "I guess we'll have to wing it."
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Literature
Did you know?
Did you know that every word out of your mouth is a spear in my heart?
No, that's not violent enough.
You would use an axe to rip it apart, a machine gun mangling my body.
Not powerful enough?
A wrecking ball knocks into me, breaking most of my bones and collapsing my lungs. My spinal chord is severed and I die almost instantly.
No, you wouldn't do that. That's too merciful.
Your mouth is the bottle and your words are the pills. One by one they're forced into me, and I fold in on myself, the anti-depressants slowing down my heart until there's nothing left of me.
But you've tortured me too long. You stand over me, disappointed.
I'm gone, and what's the fun in beating a dead body?
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Wish I Could Run
What have I done
Wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
-Glee original song

Maybe I could sink through the floor.
Maybe I could melt into the night sky.
Maybe I could lie down in the grass and smell the earth until I became it.
Maybe I could do it.
Maybe I could tell someone.
Maybe I could be brave.
But I'm too scared. I'm too much of a wimp to do anything about my situation.
I'm in quicksand, sinking deep, and fighting only makes it worse.
Truth is, I'm tired of fighting.
I desperately need to cleanse myself of this secret,
But no can do.
I can't deal with what that means.
I repeat the words over and over to myself:
I can't,
I can't,
I can't.
What would people do if they knew?
Hell, what would I do if I knew?
I don't know, and that's the problem.
I have too much on my plate, and it's not okay.
It's not okay, and I just can't deal with it right now.
So I'll swallow my secret,
Hide my regrets away somewhere deep,
Distract myself with other people,
And put my
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Literature
Not Real
This.
Cannot.
Be.
Happening.
It's not real.
I'll wake up and there you'll be again.
I've never been in denial like this before.
I saw you.
But I can't comprehend how it could be possible.
It doesn't make any sense at all.
So instead of accepting the fact that it happened,
I'll push fact away and rely on fiction.
It didn't happen.
You'll be there when I wake up.
Period.
End of story.
No arguments.
It's a dream, after all.
So when I come back in the morning,
You will be right next to me,
Whining, looking at me with those big eyes,
And alive.
Heart beating,
Blood pumping,
Lungs working,
Alive.
Because you're not dead-
No, no.
On the contrary, you're quite alive.
You will be there, waiting for me.
All I have to do is go to sleep.
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Literature
Why now?
I don't know how to feel about this.
I've waited so long for it, and when it came, I cried.
I have no idea why.
I know that, most likely, nothing will happen for a while.
That's okay with me.
I don't want to make a fuss.
But I am confused.
What does this mean for me now?
What do I do?
It's a very personal time for me,
Emotional,
And weird.
I knew it would happen sooner or later.
So why now?
Of all times?
So much crap has happened in my life the past few months.
Why now?
Why this time?
I'm confused.
Crying won't help anymore, I already figured that out.
So I guess I'll just wait it out.
I'll do the best that I can,
And hopefully, that's enough.
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This Road by weasleygirl27 This Road :iconweasleygirl27:weasleygirl27 3 5
Literature
Tired
I'm tired.
I'm tired of all this.
I'm tired of you, I'm tired of drama, I'm tired of my family, I'm tired of this town.
I love you guys, but I'm just... tired.
My eyes ache and I feel sleepy.
I wish I could go to bed and forget this all, just wake up a new person.
You know, I wish life could be easier too, but wishing won't make it better.
I wish all of you good luck in life, you know that, right?
I want all of your dreams to come true.
But that won't happen, we know this.
Only a few of us will end up truly happy with our lives.
In order for things to be simpler, and easier, we all need to actually make it happen.
I know it's hard, but in the long run, we'll all be so much better off if we can all be straightforward and honest 100% of the time.
I'm sitting here hoping we'll all figure it out, but I can't be responsible for my friends.
I have to just be responsible for me.
And now, I haven't moved on yet, but I will.
At this moment I'm just tired and done with this.
I wish ever
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weasleygirl27
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I'm 17 and love many things such as books, writing, drawing, cats, and my fandoms.

CURRENT FANDOMS: Supernatural, Merlin, Misfits, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Firefly/Serenity, AVPM/AVPS/AVPSY, Cabin Pressure, Teen Wolf, Psych, Elementary, Community
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last time i updated was march so i figured i'd make another journal

just so you know i don't post any deviations on here anymore and this is basically an archive for stupid poems and stories and fic i used to write (also dumb "photography" but yeah)

so if anyone stumbles upon this pls know that i know my whole gallery sucks but i was young and stupid don't judge me

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thank you for the watch! ouo
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you're welcome! (:
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you're welcome c:
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Thanks for the watch! I really appreciate it.
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You're welcome! (:
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You're welcome (:
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:iconlawlolawlplz: THANK YOU FOR THE WATCH PIPER :D
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